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You really are too accommodating. I could take nearly everything from you, and I doubt you'd care.

But you are right. I do hate it. I was getting attached to two of them. I also pointless games. Even more losing them.

But Snail lost, too.

I wouldn't let you take everything. But if it's pieces of me then I don't see why not. Besides, one of these days our positions may be reversed. Maybe then I'll be the one who'd want to take everything from you, have you thought of it? Rather than being accommodating, I'm simply making sure you will always have use of me.

As for Snail ... we really need a victory soon.

Is my promise not enough? That I will always have use for you.

[He faces him, wrapping his arms around his shoulders.]

Then you better work for it.

[Nevermind that Cricket lost too!]

[ he's going to bring his arms around his waist, pulling him a little close ]

Is my promise enough for you? You do the same, just in different ways.

[Cute. How about if a couple of vines root him in place?]

I want to hear it.

[ oh. So stubborn. ]

...

Your promise alone will never make me feel safe. To the back of my head I'm always going to think "this is it. this is the moment he's going to discard me".

But if I make sure you can't do without me, then that's something I can count on.

Are you really surprised?

That means you don't trust yourself yet. You've spent far too long with humans and their ignorance.

But you did answer my question which is deserving of a gift.

[And of course these vines have thorns that catch on Mochi's skin as he brings him closer for a searing kiss.]

[ he barely has the time to let out a pained noise at that, his lips are sealed with a kiss and honestly he's not going to complain. He's returning it with the same fervor, the cuts on his skin only spurring him on further ]

And you? Are you worried despite my promises?

You've kicked up a lot of dust. Brought a lot of things into question. Not that I mind. I would rather know than not.

[The vines let up but only so he can kick him to the ground.]

But if you try to leave, I will break you. You won't get far, and you'll remember your place. And if there is anything I do trust it is my own durability. You'll survive it.

Edited 2023-05-27 16:13 (UTC)

[ he's kicked, but he's grabbing on him, trying to force him down with him and laughing as his back hits the ground. ]

Ah ... then I've already made it so you can't be without me, mm? All this effort to be useful is unnecessary.

[ but he doesn't seem like he wants to stop being so, regardless. ]

I'd almost want to test it just to see how you'd break me.

[He falls on him catching himself on his hands. As he sits up, he takes Mochi's wind vision.]

For all your wanderings, you are still a puppet. A puppet created for the purpose of holding a divine being. Even though you've discarded it, it leaves a hole in your chest, right?

You won't accept a gnosis nor any pact with Celestia. Fine. I'm not going to fight you on that.

But I am a divine being. And you've accepted my pact. By doing so, haven't you fulfilled your purpose?

[ Is this his purpose? To accept even the theory feels like he's taking steps back. But he can't deny that part of why he's latched so strongly onto Haruki has to do with his search of meaning and purpose. He tries to sit up as well, looking at him ]

What are you trying to say?

You don't need a gnosis to fulfill your destiny.

... Mm.

I don't care about "destiny". I'm not sure I care about "purpose" anymore either. Right now, all I want is my revenge and to make things right. Then I will just do what I want, with you.

If you didn't care about purpose, I wouldn't bother you about it. But it obviously concerns you.

Then it's fine if I think of being with you as having filled my purpose, mm. Even if it won't fill this hole.

[He is still sitting across his waist holding his vision. He leans forward resting his free hand against his chest.]

Do you think you will ever fill it?

[ he's quiet for a moment, glancing from Haruki's face to the vision in his hand ]

... No. But some things are just never meant to happen. There's no point in chasing after them, I've done that for long enough.

Is this what you want to do? To focus on me, rather than your own feelings?

I wanted to see how much I could bend you. You did say I could use you.

So, I guess, yes.

[ he's going to reach over for Haruki's hand, keeping it there ]

Does it feel right for you? If I find purpose in staying with you. If I acknowledge you as a divine being and my wish to stay by your side as just fulfilling my purpose, is that really ...

[ a pause, and then he shakes his head ]

That's not breaking free for either of us, is it.

Even after everything I've learned --- after everything you told me --- I still don't regret becoming a god. Maybe I became one for all the wrong reasons. Chasing a purpose I could never have.

But Sumeru belongs to me. In the end, I don't view it as wasted effort or chains holding me down.

But do you?

Edited 2023-05-28 07:58 (UTC)

... No. Had I not taken that path I would not have obtained the truth. And as for you, it's not my place to decide whether it was wasted or not. You're right that Sumeru belongs to you now, and you obviously care about it.

But I don't like the thought of being by your side just because I'm a puppet who was made to serve a god.

It feels hollow.

Fine. I'll find another way to tether you to my side.

[He pulls his hand out but keeps it close. Close enough so he can trace the marks on Mochi's chest that glow when he's using his abilities.]

Just don't stray too far after getting your revenge.

[ he's shifting so he can grab at his clothes at that, pulling him down just a bit so their faces will be closer ]

Didn't you say you'll watch me get my revenge? Then won't you already be right with me when I'm taking care of it?

If you're also trying to make it so I can't stay without you ...

[ and then he moves so he can talk into his ear ]

I already would burn this whole place down if it dared to take you away from me.

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