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The parts that are still yearning for a heart. To fill that void and to be used. If you were just making me furious it wouldn't be an issue. But compared to you I can't help but feel pathetic for still being so weak.

In pure, raw strength, you could never beat me. But then again there is more than one person on your team that I couldn't contend with either.

But when you say 'weak', is it really about raw strength? I think it means something different.

[ he nods ]

Raw strength doesn't really matter as much to me. But you're nowhere near as needy and frail as I am, are you?

Who would I even be needy and frail to?

[He looks over at the sapling of Irminsul.]

I do not trust my team even enough to leave this in their care. A replica. A powerless one at that.

The ones I cared for most are gone. Those that are left are your normal, hypocritical humans. When I killed you, I was scorned and treated as a child. Even trying to win them back in the hostage game, I was berated for damaging team relations.

Maybe the new lot will be better, but I am not holding my breath.

Edited 2023-05-28 22:51 (UTC)

[ Ah. So he simply really has no one else. ]

You can be needy and frail with me. If you wanted to let go of all your defenses, I wouldn't think of you as weak and pathetic.

But having me and no one else won't help you grow.

[ even if a dark part of him really, really like the thought of that. ]

Are your teammates still off limits? ... I really don't like that they're so out of touch. That they're hurting you like this.

The same goes for your team as well. Most of them are irrational idiots. They are just irrational idiots who happen to love you.

That is where you and I differ. I don't care about growing or finding purpose. I have mine. What I have learned has thrown some of it into chaos, but some of it remains unchained.

[At the question he shrugs.]

Do what you want. We will see how long this batch lasts.

I want to know who berated you. Which one of them shall bear the burnt of my contempt?

As for Snail ... they're amenable to changing their ways after conversation, so they're not as bad as they looked back then. The problem is that they're also stubborn. But they won't hate you since you are important to me.

I know you don't like being around them. But I don't want you in cricket if you feel unwelcome there.

I want you to hunt and peck for the right one. That will be more fun and amusing.

[He does snort at 'they won't hate you since you are important to me.']

You can't really believe that. How gullible can you be?

But don't worry. I'm looking outside Cricket. You don't have to babysit me.

They have no reason to anymore. You've killed me once and never again. You're not pulling anything weird. Back then they probably thought you were messing with Snail, I don't think they understood you weren't trying to pretend to be me so much as just trying to buy yourself time.

But they have no reason to hate you anymore.

Yuki is good with plants. He's not the lord of Dendro, but he'll take care of Irminsul when you aren't able to, if you ask it of him. Salamander is not a bad team to form ties to, if you want to start with them.

But I really want to take you with me.

I do need to talk to Yuki, but it wasn't about Irminsul. Besides if I can't take care of it, you should.

Fine. I'll try to come over again sometime. But if it is weird, I'm leaving.

Edited 2023-05-28 23:37 (UTC)