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[abovefate]

[ quiet for a moment, and then ]

Lay your head down on my lap.

[fallingleaf]

[ he nods, ]

Sit down, and I will.

[abovefate]

[ he sits down on the bed, waiting for him ]

[fallingleaf]

[ once he does, Kazuha sits next to him for a moment, hesitating. and then he brushes his hair aside, before scooting down, and turning to lie his head in his lap.

his face is lightly flushed-- but there's mostly concern. ]

[abovefate]

[ he's going to start stroking his hair, surprisingly very gentle ]

I'm used to this sort of thing. You really don't have to worry so much for someone like me.

[fallingleaf]

[ he closes his eyes, taking in the feeling of it ]

Mm. I disagree.

[ and then he opens his eyes again, ]

Are you truly unbothered by it?

[abovefate]

...

Doing things like that does bring up some memories. And that's probably why I case that sort of thing too.

But it's not like anyone did anything I didn't want them to.

[fallingleaf]

Mm.

[ he reaches up to touch his cheek. ]

I see.

[abovefate]

...

You really don't have to be so gentle with me.

[fallingleaf]

I know...

But I feel like someone should.

[abovefate]

That's just ridiculous.

[fallingleaf]

Why?

[abovefate]

[ Frowning, quiet for a moment as he tries to find the right words ]

I don't need kindness. It's better used for someone else.

[fallingleaf]

I see.

[ but he doesn't look like he agrees ]

[abovefate]

[ reaching for his cheeks and pulling on them ]

You don't seem convinced.

[fallingleaf]

[ a laugh ]

Mm. I don't. But you sounded so resolute as you said it, I thought it better to not argue it.

[abovefate]

It's just how it is. You can think of me as just a puppet, anyway.

[fallingleaf]

I don't agree with that, either. You're as much a person as I am.

[abovefate]

[ there is a pause and for a moment he just seems shocked, and then he just. Glances away ]

... Mm.

[fallingleaf]

[ he reaches up, to pull his face back towards him, gently ]

Besides... Kindness is not something to have a finite amount of. If I spare some for you, I won't run out of it for others. Or at least, that is not the type of person I wish to be.

[abovefate]

... Even if you say that, it's still wasted on me.

[fallingleaf]

Mm. I don’t know.

Do you want me to stop?

[abovefate]

It's painful.

Being treated like this, like I'm worth something. It makes me think and feel things that are pointless.

[fallingleaf]

[ he's quiet for the moment at that, and then reaches for his hand, gently taking it into his own hand, and pulling where the pulse would be to his own lips for a light kiss ]

[abovefate]

... You really just like doing sappy things like that, huh.