[ he thinks about this for a moment, and exhales a breath he didn't realize he was holding when he decides to speak. ]
My mother died when I was born, and so it was always just my father and I. I could see from a young age how much my father struggled with trying to revive our clan. But with the Isshin art lost, it was only a matter of time.
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... Sometimes, yes.
I do miss my father, and the servants I grew up with occasionally.
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My mother died when I was born, and so it was always just my father and I. I could see from a young age how much my father struggled with trying to revive our clan. But with the Isshin art lost, it was only a matter of time.
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[ he frowns, and closes his eyes, maybe he will just not answer that.
even though the fact that he made a promise echoes in the back of his mind. ]
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That's also why it was so easy for me to ruin it.
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Unfortunately, my skills as a blacksmith are lacking. [ a long pause ] But I made a promise to revive it.
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If they're lacking, then I can teach you. But I should warn you that I'm not going to be kind about it.
If you decide to follow this path, then I suppose I owe you this much. But it's not like following the past suits you.
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And yet, I struggle with it every day. All the things I wish could have been done differently. The things I wish I had said, and wish I knew.
Wishing I hadn't been so naive.
[ he sighs heavily-- back to hiding his face. ]
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He never allowed it.
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I see that now.
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What would you have done differently, if you could have?
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Perhaps I would have actually taken up bonsai sooner, rather than stressing over what is now obviously inevitable.
Hmm...
But going back-- I do want to revive the Isshin art. Even though I know it will mean the end of my wandering, someday.
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You could be a wandering blacksmith, teaching the art as you move from place to place. Maybe this art should never have been kept in Inazuma alone.
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Maybe.
I do feel better thinking of it that way.
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It's not my place to say whether it'd be right or not. But it is yours, so do what you want.
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Thank you, Matcha.
[ he starts to sit up-- but mostly so he can push him back and kiss him in thanks ]
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but the look he is giving clearly says 'cute' ]