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[ Unsurprisingly he ends up coming shortly after, catching his breath and just laying on the bed, unable to do much else. He's gradually recovering his sanity, but not enough that he thinks this was a terrible idea. So when Childe asks if he can take care of him, rather than refuse outright, he indulges him ]

Mmm? And what's that going to entail? You don't have to be so affectionate with me, you know.

I know, but I can’t help but like you. I know you’re Mochi, and I don’t want you to think I’m doing any of this because of Tsukiakari, but it’s so easy to feel things for my former comrade. [ he nips at the back of his neck. ] Just cleaning you up, cleaning myself up too, and then… I could make us some tea. Might help our throats, h- hahaha.

[ It feels weird to hear him say "it's so easy to feel things for my former comrade"... is it? Did Childe feel like that before? ]

... Mm. You can take care of me.

But am I really that lovable? Since when?

I don’t know. [ he admits sheepishly. ] I always had a bit of a crush on you. I thought you were pretty and you’re strong… and that’s one hell of a combination. I did kind of enjoy the shit talk too, … [ because he likes being stepped on. ] I bet it all sounds pretty stupid, huh? [ he rolls them onto their sides, so he’s not completely crushing scaramouche. ]

If you had told me back then I would have laughed at you.

[ he likes being crushed, but this is nice too, so he just leans back against him. It feels odd to enjoy being enveloped like this while Childe's cock is still swelled inside him, but it's nice ]

I guess I could still laugh at you. But I'm trying to believe it when people say something nice about me. Even if it's ridiculous.

I know. Don’t you think there’s a reason I never said anything… [ he trails off into a brief laugh. ] And, yeah, you could, but as ridiculous as it sounds it’s true. [ his arms and tentacles wrap around him, holding him tightly against his chest. ] I just like you. [ doesn’t matter what he’s done, because childe has done some pretty shitty things too. ] I look forward to getting to know you better. [ he nips at the back of his neck. ] And you’re always welcome to share my bed. [ there’s more implied there. ]

I never liked you. You've always been irritating and a nuisance. You still are.

[ but here he is, staying snuggled against him and making no attempt to move away ]

But getting attached to me can't possibly be good for you, you know.

[ ouch, that does sting a bit, but childe hides it behind a smile. he shouldn’t be surprised, really. ] Do you still feel that way right now? And what makes you say that, because of the other you, or just you in general, because if it’s the latter, then the same could be said about me…

I don't know if I still feel that way. But since you still remember me and we're far away from the Fatui, I don't mind getting the chance to truly know you. I've only known you as a coworker after all.

... But it's because of your little bird. I'm not him and even if you say you know it, you're in love. This is going to keep eating at you. You know, that I don't look at you the same way, that I don't remember everything you shared together.

Are you really that much of a masochist?

I know that some of my feelings are spilling over, but there’s not much I can do about that. It’s not love, but I definitely care about you, and while that may be because of him I would have pushed at you regardless. I’m annoying, remember?

I know you don’t feel much of anything about me, and… that’s fine, I’m sure you have plenty going on already. If you want me to stay away, then all you have to do is say so and I’ll do my best. I don’t want you feeling uncomfortable because of me.

[ also, yes, he’s a masochist, but this time he can’t help it. ]

It's not that I want you to stay away.

[ He's silent for a few long moments as he considers whether to say it or not. But eventually... ]

But I don't want to hurt you.

And I don’t want to hurt you either. It’s part of the reason I keep reiterating how I know you and him are different, …I don’t want you to think there’s this expectation, and that I’m only doing any of this because of him. [ he manages to pull out of scaramouche, his knot having shrunk enough to make it relatively painless for the both of them. his tentacles also recede into his back. ] I want to get to know you too. [ he sits up and moves out of the bed, stretching. ]

And maybe if I bother you enough you’ll fight me. [ grins. ]

[ no don't leave. He does let out a surprised noise when Childe moves out of him and then out of bed, and he seems to be just about to ask to come back, but he holds himself back. ]

If he finds out you fucked me he's going to kill you.

You know that right? I know myself.

…maybe. [ he knows scaramouche is going to be pissed, but it’s not like he has any intention of breeding mochi, and his stupid corruptions require that he be close to somebody. not to mention he doesn’t love mochi, he loves tsukiakari. ] I know he’d be livid if I bred you, since that’s… our thing… [ childe sits back down, feeling more exhausted from the conversation than the sex. he flips back and looks at mochi. ] I lose no matter what… you know, the wish I was promised was going to be used to become immortal, so we could stay together, but now I don’t know what I’m going to do.

[ he can't address any of that serious stuff, his brain shortcircuits when he hears the word "bred". What? What the fuck? what does that mean? ]

If you what.

[ childe stares at him, confused, and then oh… right… His own face colors and he sits up abruptly. ] Nothing, it’s nothing. Let’s get in the bath.

You can't just drop that and leave.

Ah hahahahaha haha. [ holds his arms up in front of him, as though he’s innocent of saying the word. ] I, I go into heat, and need to be d- dicked down, maybe I got in the habit of asking him to breed me like I were some, some bitch. That’s it, that’s all it is. [ kill him now. ]

[ he's the one who asked he can't complain. ]

So you're the one getting bred, and that's off limits, but you still need it.

[ covers his face in his hands. ] …no, there’s more to it than that. Getting fucked and getting bred are d- different. [ turns his back on mochi and slowly expires. ] It’s more involved… [ he doesn’t want to go into detail aloud. ] But, h- Hah, breeding aside, I… I didn’t want to ask if, maybe, hahaha… [ kill him, someone strike him down right now. it’d be a mercy!! ] you could… help me. I’ll do whatever you need in return.

With what? Breeding or fucking?

…fucking. Just fucking. I’m going to be a mess in heat, and I just need to take the edge off. [ he considered going back to the sex shop ruin your stock up on things, but he knows they don’t really help. ] I’m not looking to get bred. [ not by anybody other than scaramouche. his Scaramouche. ]

... All right. I can set some time for you.

But I should probably tell you. I have other lovers.

I kind of figured. It doesn’t happen all that often, and if you’re busy then I’ll figure something out. The production enjoyed taking control away from me, so a number of my corruptions make me lose it in different ways.

[ he reaches for mochi’s head and ruffles his hair. ] I’m glad you’re getting the love you deserve.

It's not—

[ he can't say it's not love, because ... isn't it? He felt it from Sudoh. he can't just deny it, especially not after he agreed with him about it ]

It's just weird. I don't really know what to do with it.

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