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And I don’t want to hurt you either. It’s part of the reason I keep reiterating how I know you and him are different, …I don’t want you to think there’s this expectation, and that I’m only doing any of this because of him. [ he manages to pull out of scaramouche, his knot having shrunk enough to make it relatively painless for the both of them. his tentacles also recede into his back. ] I want to get to know you too. [ he sits up and moves out of the bed, stretching. ]

And maybe if I bother you enough you’ll fight me. [ grins. ]

[ no don't leave. He does let out a surprised noise when Childe moves out of him and then out of bed, and he seems to be just about to ask to come back, but he holds himself back. ]

If he finds out you fucked me he's going to kill you.

You know that right? I know myself.

…maybe. [ he knows scaramouche is going to be pissed, but it’s not like he has any intention of breeding mochi, and his stupid corruptions require that he be close to somebody. not to mention he doesn’t love mochi, he loves tsukiakari. ] I know he’d be livid if I bred you, since that’s… our thing… [ childe sits back down, feeling more exhausted from the conversation than the sex. he flips back and looks at mochi. ] I lose no matter what… you know, the wish I was promised was going to be used to become immortal, so we could stay together, but now I don’t know what I’m going to do.

[ he can't address any of that serious stuff, his brain shortcircuits when he hears the word "bred". What? What the fuck? what does that mean? ]

If you what.

[ childe stares at him, confused, and then oh… right… His own face colors and he sits up abruptly. ] Nothing, it’s nothing. Let’s get in the bath.

You can't just drop that and leave.

Ah hahahahaha haha. [ holds his arms up in front of him, as though he’s innocent of saying the word. ] I, I go into heat, and need to be d- dicked down, maybe I got in the habit of asking him to breed me like I were some, some bitch. That’s it, that’s all it is. [ kill him now. ]

[ he's the one who asked he can't complain. ]

So you're the one getting bred, and that's off limits, but you still need it.

[ covers his face in his hands. ] …no, there’s more to it than that. Getting fucked and getting bred are d- different. [ turns his back on mochi and slowly expires. ] It’s more involved… [ he doesn’t want to go into detail aloud. ] But, h- Hah, breeding aside, I… I didn’t want to ask if, maybe, hahaha… [ kill him, someone strike him down right now. it’d be a mercy!! ] you could… help me. I’ll do whatever you need in return.

With what? Breeding or fucking?

…fucking. Just fucking. I’m going to be a mess in heat, and I just need to take the edge off. [ he considered going back to the sex shop ruin your stock up on things, but he knows they don’t really help. ] I’m not looking to get bred. [ not by anybody other than scaramouche. his Scaramouche. ]

... All right. I can set some time for you.

But I should probably tell you. I have other lovers.

I kind of figured. It doesn’t happen all that often, and if you’re busy then I’ll figure something out. The production enjoyed taking control away from me, so a number of my corruptions make me lose it in different ways.

[ he reaches for mochi’s head and ruffles his hair. ] I’m glad you’re getting the love you deserve.

It's not—

[ he can't say it's not love, because ... isn't it? He felt it from Sudoh. he can't just deny it, especially not after he agreed with him about it ]

It's just weird. I don't really know what to do with it.

…mm. It’s fine if it’s not that intense of a feeling. Having special people is still nice. People that… understand you, people that you don’t always necessarily need words for, …they just kind of know what to do. [ childe gets up and heads toward the bathroom. ] I’m happy for you regardless…

I’m start the bath. [ the come in whenever is simply implied at this point. ]

[ he's following shortly after, because in the end he doesn't want to stay alone ]

... It just doesn't feel right for me to have that sort of thing.

No matter how I think about it I've only made things worse for anyone who ever got involved with me. But I guess for you, your little bird was different.

[ the bath is drawn and there are suds oozing over the edge, because he put too much bubble bath in. he climbs in, offering a hand to scaramouche. ] It didn’t start that way. [ childe laughs, reminiscing. ] The day he arrived on the show the first thing we did is fight… and then die.

It took persistence, but you said it yourself, no, I’m stubborn and annoying… so eventually he had to consider the nature of my feelings, because who else would go through all of that for a person, hm!, either a complete idiot or somebody that genuinely cared. [ and childe is clearly an idiot that does genuinely care. ]

... Maybe it's good that he found you then. I guess I can take care of you until he's with you again.

[ taking his hand ]

I'm tired now. But after, I should tell you more about what Dottore did to me. If our past is the same you need to show it to him.

[ tugs him into the bath and snakes his arm around him. ] He can be as mad as he likes about you, but he should know better than anybody else the kinds of stuff you went through… [ he just wants all scaramouches to be loved, but he will avoid breeding, since that is their thing. ]

… [ childe frowns. he doesn’t like the direction this is headed. ] He’s involved with Dottore. [ he’s almost afraid to know what he did to him. he knows a little, but he’s sure it’s not even half as much as what truly happened. ]

[ he wants to contest that, say they surely are just fucking. But this is why he's saying he needs to tell him after all, isn't he. He knows what a mess of complicated feelings he still has for Dottore. The kind of twisted mix of hate that makes what passes as a heart for him break and get put together over and over ]

... We can think about that later. For now ...

[ he shifts a little so he can kiss his cheek ]

I'm focusing on you.

…alright, sure. [ he’s going to ask his scaramouche if he wants to know whatever mochi ends up telling him, because he’s not sure he could just… break him. it must be bad though, and while he deserves to know the truth he just… ugh, why is everything so complicated. ]

[ the kiss pulls hims from his thoughts and he manages a small smile. ] Why are you so cute? [ time for some aggressively affectionate nuzzles. ]

Maybe I'm just warming up to you.

Next time you should stay inside a while longer.

[ childe smirks against his shoulder. ] I have you for the entire night, right, [ he nibbles along his shoulders. ] and I do enjoy cockwarming, so her perhaps we can sleep together. [ literally together. ] I think the bath has given me a second wind. [ no it hasn’t, he’s just perpetually horny. ]

You haven't taken care of me yet. I'm waiting, Caeli.

[ childe is going to suck a mark into scara’s neck instead of answering him. yes yes yes, he hasn’t forgotten. he grabs a cloth and pours a generous helping of liquid soap onto it, beginning to clean scara, but definitely taking his time around his nipples, cock, and ass. definitely no particular reason for this. ]

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