Caeli; It's like you're trying to find reasons to stay pissed at me. That's not what I meant. You can do whatever you like with Alexander. Don't lie to me. You did fucken care. Seriously??? I wouldn't be apologizing if I didn't regret hurting you. I don't fuck with just anybody, Scaramouche.
Pinocchio: Will you stop saying crap like that already? Pinocchio: You don't fuck with just anybody, you like me, you don't want to kill me - but all of that amounts to nothing Pinocchio: I fucked you because I was horny and I hadn't fucked someone in a long time Pinocchio: The more you try to make it about something it's not the more complicated you're making it. And the more you piss me off Pinocchio: You say stuff like that when you don't even know what you want and you're ready to throw me away like trash at a second's notice Pinocchio: Just forget about it. And if you won't I'll make you.
Caeli; Just because you're not interested in hearing it doesn't make it fucken true. I never said I was the best at this kind of thing. In fact, I KNOW I'M NOT. But whatever. If that's what you think and that's how you feel, then go ahead and make me forget! And we'll see just how far that gets the both of us.
[ scaramouche finds himself in a dark void the moment he enters his dream, small blips of color - mostly blue and purple - just barely illuminating the darkness. childe is standing there, but he doesn’t turn to look at him. ]
[ these bits and their intrusions are so annoying. ] Why, I thought you didn’t care.
Keep telling me how special he is and I'm going to change my mind. I already know. You went off the handle just at the thought of me kissing him, he's obviously far ahead of me no matter how "special" I am to you.
But I want to avoid having another misunderstanding... and remember how you asked me if I would get jealous if somebody kissed or choked you. Of course, but being that we haven't defined what we are I can't just fly off the handle. And you had made it clear you didn't want anything attached to our regular fuck sessions...
I didn't anticipate having more than one person like this in my life... but things just happened like that. You don't think I'm capable of caring about you too?
What's the point of it? You're going to go back to your world, faced with a version of myself who won't even know what happened here. Even if you wouldn't kill me you really can't see how bad that's going to be? And me, I'll just be left to wander on my own.
You won't betray the Tsaritsa and you won't leave that Archon of yours. So why do you keep on trying to make this worse?
...Xiansheng and I might not be from the same world. Sensei and I definitely aren't from the same world, and you know what, Scaramouche, even if we were all from some happy fucken version of the same place I'm not going to be able to live nearly as long as you. I'm mortal, you're all basically immortal, and because of my Delusion and my Foul Legacy I'm destined to die in the next couple of years anyway. [ a mirthful laugh. ] I want to enjoy the time I have with the people I care about... what's so wrong with that?
I don't want to talk about feelings, and even if I did, isn't that too soon? I've only been here for a week and before then it had been years since I last saw you.
Can't we go back to just having fun and forget about the rest? I can't promise I won't touch your things. But I won't go out of my way to break them.
Fair. I can stop. I guess because of a number of recent things that have happened I have been thinking more about my imminent mortality.
But, sure, that's fine. I appreciate that. [ he finally does turn, reaching out for scaramouche. ] I'll try not to be such a mess, though I can't exactly promise I'll make much progress... eheh.
All mortals live for but a blink of an eye. If nothing else at least you've always held fast to your convictions. As foolish as it is I don't dislike that about you.
... But I am glad that here and now you're still alive.
[ grabs his sleeve and starts tugging him closer, though a low rumbling sounds from the darkness and an enormous pair of glistening teeth appear from out of the void. ]
[ it doesn’t seem friendly… so better to err on the side of caution, though it’s presence does push against the barrier created; threatening to break it. ]
[ this is a nice surprise, but he's still feeling shitty. ] ...thank you for forgiving me. [ tightens his grip on scaramouche. ] Have you enjoyed bingo otherwise?
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Re: day 416, asscrack of dawn.
That's not what I meant.
You can do whatever you like with Alexander.
Don't lie to me.
You did fucken care.
Seriously???
I wouldn't be apologizing if I didn't regret hurting you.
I don't fuck with just anybody, Scaramouche.
Re: day 416, asscrack of dawn.
Pinocchio: You don't fuck with just anybody, you like me, you don't want to kill me - but all of that amounts to nothing
Pinocchio: I fucked you because I was horny and I hadn't fucked someone in a long time
Pinocchio: The more you try to make it about something it's not the more complicated you're making it. And the more you piss me off
Pinocchio: You say stuff like that when you don't even know what you want and you're ready to throw me away like trash at a second's notice
Pinocchio: Just forget about it. And if you won't I'll make you.
Re: day 416, asscrack of dawn.
I never said I was the best at this kind of thing.
In fact, I KNOW I'M NOT.
But whatever. If that's what you think and that's how you feel,
then go ahead and make me forget!
And we'll see just how far that gets the both of us.
Re: day 416, asscrack of dawn.
Re: day 416, asscrack of dawn.
later
I'll accept your apology.
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[ these bits and their intrusions are so annoying. ] Why, I thought you didn’t care.
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I already knew you're a brat who's all instinct, obviously you're going to act like that.
[ he's going to sit down - well, wherever he can, even if it means on the floor. For now, he's leaving the dream exactly as he is ]
I wanted to get a rise out of him.
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[ childe doesn’t move, instead he just looks down at the ground. ]
You got a rise out of me instead.
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You won't betray the Tsaritsa and you won't leave that Archon of yours. So why do you keep on trying to make this worse?
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I don't want to talk about feelings, and even if I did, isn't that too soon? I've only been here for a week and before then it had been years since I last saw you.
Can't we go back to just having fun and forget about the rest? I can't promise I won't touch your things. But I won't go out of my way to break them.
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But, sure, that's fine. I appreciate that. [ he finally does turn, reaching out for scaramouche. ] I'll try not to be such a mess, though I can't exactly promise I'll make much progress... eheh.
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... But I am glad that here and now you're still alive.
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That's distracting. He's curious about what it is, but he's not in a hurry to die. So for now, he'll just put a barrier around the two of them ]
And what is it that you're dreaming now?
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…the abyss.
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