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It's not a rain cloud. [ folds his arms. ]

Then you can come in.

[ opening the door for him so he can let him in, immediately going to his room. There is a mess of fabrics all around the floor ]

You're going to help me.

[ his tail is down and his ears are back, his arms still folded tightly across his chest. ] Help you do what?

Sorting these out. I'm organizing them by color, type and length. Some of it I can't really use to make clothes, but it can be used for something else.

And if you talk while we do that, I can't stop you.

...well I don't want to sit in silence. [ huff. ] And what do you plan on using it for if not for clothes? [ he'll start to help. ] I hate that he's gone and I only just got back. I was telling Beatrice that I like this place more than I like my home, because of some of the people I've met here... but if they all leave, then what's the difference between here and there?

...Dolls. I'm making some with fabric.

[ he's quiet as he sorts them, listening to Kaiju and not really knowing what to say. He's upset too, and he doesn't think knowing he might come back is of any real comfort ]

There will always be other people here. There are still many you haven't met too.

Dolls? ...that sounds real cute. Do you make your own dolls or do you base them off of people you know?

I don't care. I don't want just anybody. [ he wants the people he was close to. ] ...and what's the point of meeting other people if they're just going to leave one day too?

I don't know. I don't really like losing people either. But the time spent together is still precious, isn't it?

Or something like that.

[ he goes quiet, stopping the sorting to instead sit there and stare at the floor. is it precious? it's nice while it persists, but then what? all kaiju does is hurt when he thinks of the people he loves. ] ...people just need to stop leaving. [ said bitterly. ]

Mm.

But it's something you're going to have to be prepared for. it'll jeep happening.

Are you prepared for it?

[ MY TERRIBLE TYPO. NO JEEPS. JUST KEEP. ]

No, obviously, that's the sort of thing everyone says and nobody can handle.

[ it’s okay. i knew what you meant. ] Don’t say it then. It’s a waste of your breath. [ goes back to sorting, though this doesn’t really seem to be helping distract him. ]

Is this all you’re going to do today? [ he’s getting up to poke around the room. got anything out for him to notice? ]

I'm not saying it to waste your time or mine. I'm saying it because even if I'm not prepared for it, it's true that we both should be.

Jesper was already taken for a while, you know. Then he came back and now he's gone again. He won't be the only one. Members of Snail and Finch alike could leave at any moment.

It's always going to get harder.

I’m never going to be prepared for it, because I don’t like how much it hurts! [ the ‘cloud’ seems to grow darker, the curse tattoo on his thigh glowing. ] …I’m sure he’s somewhere better, but I selfishly want him here. And the rest of Finch too. I don’t want to end up all alone.

...Mm.

I don't want to end up all alone either. So It's not like I don't understand.

…mm, I just want to find someone to fill the void. [ he looks down at the fabrics. ] Will you make me a doll?

... Of Jesper, or of yourself?

Of me. I bet it’s be cute. Although, I’m not sure what I can give you in return.

Nothing, because I'm not doing it. You're going to. Just follow my instructions.

...aw. [ he had been hoping he could get mochi to do it. ] How about you make me and I make you then?

That's acceptable. So long as you'll pay attention.

[ he just wants to make sure to keep him distracted ]

I'm paying attention.

Don't you worry, Mochi.

[ he's going to select each fabric for the both of them, and then start - going slow enough that Kaiju can tell what to do just by looking ]

... Is there something you like to do to feel better?

...sing and dance and video games. I used to be an idol, but then I decided to be a streamer, because, well, I don't know, but... I like to do things for people. Like perform, I mean. I like attention. [ said with no shame. ]

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