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I don't know. I don't really like losing people either. But the time spent together is still precious, isn't it?

Or something like that.

[ he goes quiet, stopping the sorting to instead sit there and stare at the floor. is it precious? it's nice while it persists, but then what? all kaiju does is hurt when he thinks of the people he loves. ] ...people just need to stop leaving. [ said bitterly. ]

Mm.

But it's something you're going to have to be prepared for. it'll jeep happening.

Are you prepared for it?

[ MY TERRIBLE TYPO. NO JEEPS. JUST KEEP. ]

No, obviously, that's the sort of thing everyone says and nobody can handle.

[ it’s okay. i knew what you meant. ] Don’t say it then. It’s a waste of your breath. [ goes back to sorting, though this doesn’t really seem to be helping distract him. ]

Is this all you’re going to do today? [ he’s getting up to poke around the room. got anything out for him to notice? ]

I'm not saying it to waste your time or mine. I'm saying it because even if I'm not prepared for it, it's true that we both should be.

Jesper was already taken for a while, you know. Then he came back and now he's gone again. He won't be the only one. Members of Snail and Finch alike could leave at any moment.

It's always going to get harder.

I’m never going to be prepared for it, because I don’t like how much it hurts! [ the ‘cloud’ seems to grow darker, the curse tattoo on his thigh glowing. ] …I’m sure he’s somewhere better, but I selfishly want him here. And the rest of Finch too. I don’t want to end up all alone.

...Mm.

I don't want to end up all alone either. So It's not like I don't understand.

…mm, I just want to find someone to fill the void. [ he looks down at the fabrics. ] Will you make me a doll?

... Of Jesper, or of yourself?

Of me. I bet it’s be cute. Although, I’m not sure what I can give you in return.

Nothing, because I'm not doing it. You're going to. Just follow my instructions.

...aw. [ he had been hoping he could get mochi to do it. ] How about you make me and I make you then?

That's acceptable. So long as you'll pay attention.

[ he just wants to make sure to keep him distracted ]

I'm paying attention.

Don't you worry, Mochi.

[ he's going to select each fabric for the both of them, and then start - going slow enough that Kaiju can tell what to do just by looking ]

... Is there something you like to do to feel better?

...sing and dance and video games. I used to be an idol, but then I decided to be a streamer, because, well, I don't know, but... I like to do things for people. Like perform, I mean. I like attention. [ said with no shame. ]

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