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Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

I want to be able to play for my creator again, [ if. ] when I see her again, ...but, no, they're... not.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Why do you care so much about your creator?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

…

A good question, honestly. I probably shouldn’t, because her loyalty lies elsewhere, and I doubt I’m ever going to be able to successfully steer her onto a better and much safer path…

But perhaps it’s because she’s the only person that ever showed me any kind of attention or affection.

It was nice.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

So you're following her around like a puppy knowing she will stab you int he back?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

I'm not going to stray too far, because her brother is the one I want to kill. After that I'll consider how to move forward... until then being close to her benefits me.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

So she's loyal to this brother of hers, whom you plan to kill. And you don't think she will hate you after?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

I'm sure she will, but I'm also hoping that, by some miracle, she'll realize she's been being used and abused this entire time.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Good luck with that. I wouldn't put much faith in it.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

I'm not. But killing him is really all I care about and what happens after... [ shrugs. ]

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Why not kill her too if she doesn't join you?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

Is that what you would do?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Obviously. I've never been one for "so long as they're happy I'm happy too". I'm more for "if I'm miserable they should be too".

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

Isn't being perpetually miserable tiring?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Yes, which is exactly why I don't see why I should be the only one to suffer through it.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

Instead of staying miserable and making other people miserable why don't you, instead, try being... happy?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Happiness is ultimately a fleeting illusion that only lasts for a few moments at best. It's futile.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

...most feelings are. But isn't that what makes life worth living? Being able to indulge now and then. Because, otherwise, if you think about it we merely live to die.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Well, you've cracked the code. You're right. We only live to die.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

But that's why it's important to try to enjoy the time you're around, no?

Does anything make you happy?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Take a wild guess. What do you think?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

Making people miserable? [ ... ] I meant something *else*. Surely there's something else...

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

There isn't. I told you, happiness is ultimately futile.

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

[ DOUBT. ]

If it hadn't been too much trouble and because your ears didn't bleed would you mind coming around when I learn the next piece?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[abovefate]

Yes. Why would I come listen to you again?

Re: day 417, later or something idk

[586]

It breaks up the monotony... and with a little more practice perhaps you'll even like it.