Ruby: ok you CAN'T tell my brother that i told you Ruby: i was reincarnated. like. the last thing. Ruby: and it'll probably sound stupid but sometimes i visit my old family to see how they're doing without me Ruby: kinda hope for having a better relationship with them Ruby: i know that's stupid though since it's not like they know that i was her Ruby: ... but there's no sign i ever lived there or they even had me as a daughter Ruby: so to them i basically never existed Ruby: those kinds of feelings
Ruby: easier said than done Ruby: they even had kids to replace me when i died Ruby: sometimes i ask god why i was reborn because there's a lot of things that just Ruby: suck Ruby: i guess Ruby: if you had the option to be born again would you have still erased yourself? Ruby: or do you think you deserve to be totally erased?
Hat Guy: It's not a matter of "deserve" Hat Guy: I didn't erase myself because I was feeling sorry for myself or because I wanted to run away Hat Guy: But I don't think I would want to be born again either Hat Guy: This new incarnation of mine is already enough and more than I expected
Hat Guy: That depends on your own point of view on it Hat Guy: Had things gone the way I wanted them to I simply would have never existed at all and those who ran into me would have had a new chance at life Hat Guy: Instead I'm the one who got another shot Hat Guy: But that does provide me with a great opportunity for revenge.
Hat Guy: I can't "use it for good" Hat Guy: The only "for good" use of my life I've had was erase it and that didn't work. Hat Guy: But me to someone else. Hat Guy: Though I'll give everyone like Kazuha the chance to take theirs too, in good time
Ruby: you should just let yourself live anyway Ruby: you can do the stuff you want to do Ruby: but you should be able to just LIVE if you want too in between all of that...
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Ruby: i was reincarnated. like. the last thing.
Ruby: and it'll probably sound stupid but sometimes i visit my old family to see how they're doing without me
Ruby: kinda hope for having a better relationship with them
Ruby: i know that's stupid though since it's not like they know that i was her
Ruby: ... but there's no sign i ever lived there or they even had me as a daughter
Ruby: so to them i basically never existed
Ruby: those kinds of feelings
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Hat Guy: But you should probably let go of those feelings
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Ruby: they even had kids to replace me when i died
Ruby: sometimes i ask god why i was reborn because there's a lot of things that just
Ruby: suck
Ruby: i guess
Ruby: if you had the option to be born again would you have still erased yourself?
Ruby: or do you think you deserve to be totally erased?
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Hat Guy: I didn't erase myself because I was feeling sorry for myself or because I wanted to run away
Hat Guy: But I don't think I would want to be born again either
Hat Guy: This new incarnation of mine is already enough and more than I expected
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Hat Guy: Had things gone the way I wanted them to I simply would have never existed at all and those who ran into me would have had a new chance at life
Hat Guy: Instead I'm the one who got another shot
Hat Guy: But that does provide me with a great opportunity for revenge.
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Ruby: you CAN use it for good at least right
Ruby: but is that revenge for people like kazuha or you to someone else
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Hat Guy: The only "for good" use of my life I've had was erase it and that didn't work.
Hat Guy: But me to someone else.
Hat Guy: Though I'll give everyone like Kazuha the chance to take theirs too, in good time
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Ruby: and you get your revenge?
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Hat Guy: Maybe then I'll just live.
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Ruby: you can do the stuff you want to do
Ruby: but you should be able to just LIVE if you want too in between all of that...
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