…but it’s not nothing. I’m a bit more in tune with things that I had been in the past, but it’s still… it’s not easy. Do you know how much I worry about the distance people would prefer to keep from me, how what they’re saying and how they’re acting is all a lie. I can pretend like it doesn’t bother me, but it does. [ following his fall into the abyss nobody dared to go near him. he was a menace, and the distance that he put between himself and everybody else ( even members of his family ) was like a stake to the heart. ]
It gets easier, but that doesn’t mean it’s not still a little hard… and kind of scary. [ a small laugh. ]
[ he looks genuinely surprised, he never thought someone like Childe ever had those issues. He looks like he just has such a easy time connecting to people, and even with him, it seemed effortless ]
... It is scary. But I'm starting to think it's worth it.
As much as other Fatui do. ... Well, I might know a little more, since I can tell you're tainted by the Abyss. But I'd be surprised if the others don't know as well.
I know you're the youngest Harbinger, and that you have a family you care about. I know you were recruited when you were even younger, and that Pulcinella makes sure to be very close to your family. I know that you prefer fighting honestly, head-on, rather than scheme in the shadows ...
And now I know that you're good at household chores. And that you're even better at fucking.
[ so about the same as most of his other colleagues then. mostly. ] ...heh. [ snorts at the last bit. ] I fell into the abyss and I had been there for several months. It turned out to just be a couple of days, but it changed me. I couldn't stop getting into trouble, picking fights left and right, so my father thought joining the Fatui could bring order to my life again... maybe whip me into shape and bring order to my life. [ it... didn't really. ] It did give me what I was craving... fights. Bigger and better opponents.
But I'm sure you better than most know the abyss doesn't let you leave without leaving it's mark on you. [ which is why he can sense the abyssal energy coming off childe. ]
It's exciting... and I don't know how I would get along without it now, but I'm just a human [ or was. he doesn't know what the hell he is now. ] so it's slowly killing me.
In the other place I had been I was promised a wish, and I planned to use that wish to turn into a legitimate kitsune, so I could live longer... [ but now he's realized that tsukiakari had needed that wish to wish himself back to life, so fuck. he had forgotten about that. ]
[ this wasn't the conversation to have while they were knotted. ]
...just back to square one is all. [ he gives a laugh as he gently nuzzles into him. ] Let's talk about something else.
I mentioned I knew another Emet-Selch, right, and he and my sensei had plans to make me a gnosis of my own, to keep the abyssal energy from continuing to taint me and... all that...
Both of them graduated, so I just have to hope that between the two of them they'll find me or... something...
I was overdue for a fuck up. [ he laughs. ] …you know, I just noticed my friends didn’t make an appearance. [ the tentacles. ] How kind of them to let me have you all to myself.
[ Oh. He lets out a whine at that, reaching for Childe again like he doesn't want to let him go at all - though just like he asked earlier, he can feel Childe's cum drip down at that ]
Insatiable. [ said fondly. ] If you're not careful my knot is going to swell again and you're going to get stuck. Or is that what you're hoping for. [ he leaves the hydro mark on his wrist, but sets his electro riptide on his stomach. ] So greedy, Mochi.
[ now that he knows Caeli can do this, he feels like he's going to keep asking him to put both marks on him. There's another moan of pleasure as he feels that mark, and then he reaches for Childe's hand, holding it as he keeps moving on his cock ]
Since I'm yours, I should - I should get to monopolize your time for a little more, no? So it's fine if you get stuck inside me a little longer.
[ childe kisses him to drink in that moan. he loves being able to use his riptides again, and seeing how much pleasure they can bring him is sending him. mochi will feel his knot start to swell, so he'll find himself stuck not even a couple of thrusts in. ] ...I'm yours tonight. We had it rough, right, so we deserve to be spoiled. [ and then he's going to bite him again, because he's a jerk like that. ] I wonder... do you think you could take my Foul Legacy's dick?
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It gets easier, but that doesn’t mean it’s not still a little hard… and kind of scary. [ a small laugh. ]
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... It is scary. But I'm starting to think it's worth it.
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I know you're the youngest Harbinger, and that you have a family you care about. I know you were recruited when you were even younger, and that Pulcinella makes sure to be very close to your family. I know that you prefer fighting honestly, head-on, rather than scheme in the shadows ...
And now I know that you're good at household chores. And that you're even better at fucking.
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But I'm sure you better than most know the abyss doesn't let you leave without leaving it's mark on you. [ which is why he can sense the abyssal energy coming off childe. ]
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... But for me that energy coming out of you is just exciting. Maybe it's because I've also spent a lot of time in there.
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But he's not saying anything back ]
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In the other place I had been I was promised a wish, and I planned to use that wish to turn into a legitimate kitsune, so I could live longer... [ but now he's realized that tsukiakari had needed that wish to wish himself back to life, so fuck. he had forgotten about that. ]
[ this wasn't the conversation to have while they were knotted. ]
...just back to square one is all. [ he gives a laugh as he gently nuzzles into him. ] Let's talk about something else.
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I mentioned I knew another Emet-Selch, right, and he and my sensei had plans to make me a gnosis of my own, to keep the abyssal energy from continuing to taint me and... all that...
Both of them graduated, so I just have to hope that between the two of them they'll find me or... something...
It'll be alright. I'm tough, you know that, ...
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[ nuzzling against him again ]
It's fine. I was just surprised to hear.
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I like it here on my stomach, but ... I think I like it more on my wrist. Is that fine for you?
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I just want a place where I can see it easily, if you're not around.
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Do you like it there too?
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Wait—
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I can't be satisfied with - just that. I want more.
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Since I'm yours, I should - I should get to monopolize your time for a little more, no? So it's fine if you get stuck inside me a little longer.
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