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I could take it. [ his horny brain insists. ] Just make sure they're small, ... [ but the rational part of him is fighting, because he knows it IS a bad idea. ] 11 then.

[ AFTER MORE FUCKING!!! He will eventually be tired and need rest. But he's wrapping his arms around Childe and pulling him close ]

Boyfriend, huh?

[ childe circles his arms around scaramouche and rests his head on his shoulder. he shuts his eyes and smiles against his skin. ] ...yeah. I think it's got a nice ring to it. And... I really care about you. I just want you to be happy and I hope that I can do just that. [ his grip on scara tightens. ]

Mmm. It feels nice to stay like this with you.

[ But he doesn't want to think on it too deeply. Things like being happy together, actually having a future - that kind of thing. It still feels beyond him ]

...I feel the same. I have felt kind of, I don't know, [ a sigh. ] depressed lately, but spending time with you has helped turn that around and I'm finally feeling more like myself.

[ oh. that makes sense considering everything, doesn't it. He hums, keeping him close, still inside him since he did promise he'd let him cockwarm him, after all ]

Do you want to talk about it?

[ childe kisses his forehead. ] I'm just so pissed, to have worked so hard to set myself up for success, ... [ and he's not just talking about his relationships. ] I met another Emet-Selch there too, and together with Tsukiakari, his fiance, and Zhongli Xiansheng... [ he brings a hand to his chest. ] I was finally going to get some help for this. [ the abyssal taint, among other things now. ] But now everything's so uncertain again. I'm not scared, per say, but I don't know if I can be... happy. Is it worth it? Will it matter? [ he shuts his eyes and sighs. ] If I'm just going to die...

This place is just isolating you from those achievements. You're here now, but the people you talked about aren't.

They might still be working for you.

...maybe. I don't know, and it's been hard to continue seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. But you have made it bearable, and I'm thankful that you've decided to give me a chance. I don't want to disappoint, because I really do think you deserve to be happy and... and I want to be a part of that happiness. [ hopefully tsukiakari won't be too mad... and maybe if he wants to travel to all those other worlds he won't have to worry about childe being alone... who knows. he's just abuzz with CONCERNS. ]

[ he's quiet for a moment at that, because he really doesn't know how to react to those words. But then he just leaves a kiss to the bite mark he gave him earlier, on his scent gland ]

I think I like the thought of that. ... Being able to be happy, and make you happy too.

[ childe shudders. ] ah. [ that hits him a little hard. ] ...Mochi. [ he squeezes him. ] Right? It... it'll be nice. I think we both deserve it.

You do at least. As for myself … I’m still thinking it over.

...

I don't believe that. Not that you're still trying to decide, because I guess I... get it. Following some of the stuff you've been through, that you're unsure, but I know you deserve, and I'm going to see to it that you find happiness.

[ holding him a little tighter at that, and giving him another kiss ]

How cute. You really do care, mm?

I do... I worry about you sometimes, Mochi, ... [ going to give him a few kisses!!! ]

Oh? And what has you so worried?

...you were miserable, right, so that's why you decided to try and erase yourself?

[ hahahah ]

… mmm. I wanted to save my friends.

...following all the stuff you learned *he* did to both you and them. [ he frowns, not wanting to bring down the mood too much. ] I know it probably still hurts, but I... I'm glad you're still here. You've said it before, that we were never really close, but... you were still somebody I looked up to and admired. [ even if, back then, his attitude was absolute shit. ]